Exit Wounds

I will find a way
to say good-bye
that doesn't leave you
wondering, wandering
as if it were all your fault
I will not leave you
to own
what is mine
what has always
been mine
the bigness
of what was wrong
with me
always my fatal flaw
the thing in me
that kept me
friendless
empty
and eternally 'home'less
I loved you always
you know
it was me that I hated
me I planned and plotted
against
That darkness in me
that no-one ever tried to lighten
It is the me
that I owned.