Holiday Twist

twisted & torn
scarred since the day you were born
you never knew which way was up
cuz you've only ever been down
filled the gaps up with a lie
smiling while wishing you would die
suicide
that's been your only friend
been fighting it, playing pretend
you know you'll lose in the end
because
you're twisted & torn
nothing good left inside
all the best of you has died
gets harder every day
cry while others pray
bleeding out into the night
should have died as a kid from the fright
go away
no strength left in you
you let life beat you black & blue
thought you had the right
to stand up & fight
there was nothing new
inside the darkness grew