Spin Cycle

Starts over begins again
nowhere to go
except back
to where we started
where we parted
because the words
they soothe
they kill
that certain part of me
that wants to live
that wants to breathe
and you can't let go
of all you've known
why can't you see
how you tear at me
rip apart
my very soul
can't let me love you
can't let me in
starts over
begins again

fine
so you leave me hanging
you have nothing left to say
put it all off on me
i wont deal with yesterday
today
you gotta give something back
before i lose it all
gotta hold my hand
before i fall

or you've just become
like everyone
where i've become
invisible

and i have no hand to hold
no hand at all

im nothing again
lil miss invisible

no more to you
no more to see

give it all
then take it from me

its ok
id like to say
i'll be alright

but i wont commit
to that lie

Sitting @ the bookstore June 1, 2006

this isn't fair
when I think I've got it all
I see it's gone nowhere
it isn't right
to just create a fight
where there is nothing
just raw nerves
all open and bare
just a wounded heart
just needs you to care
you jump the gun
thought you were the one
maybe I was wrong
been there before
maybe if I just gave some more
now I'm cut - bleeding inside
feel like something inside me has died
don't want to explore
just want to cry some more
this isn't just pain
it's a certain kind of death
of a deeper part of me
of all that was left
can't get outside to stop the bleed
you were all of me
all I need.