Life Support

My heart aches for you, tattered, shattered

Beyond words, as I can do nothing to save you

Heal you

Wounds open, with no cure, no relief for the pain

And I scream, stream tears, shedding over and over

At the thoughts of all I cannot do

To erase the presence of this horrifying monster that has stolen your life

Forever

My words are just empty letters, falling onto a page

For no words could ever encompass this deep tragedy

And you

Innocent – stand by, lost, wandering, already covered over in grief

Not even knowing how to swallow the bitterness of what is happening

Has happened

Not knowing if you even can… or want to…

I am so sorry, to the core of my soul - I truly ache with your agony

As one who can do nothing to free you from the realities of this harsh and brutal journey you must face

I love you so much my friend, as if always you were somehow sister to me

In another life, another time – connected

And always

I am here – arms out… heart out… these are all I have

My words just will not do…

~To Annette... for Dear Piers, he has not left you alone... I love you my dear friend. 

Pseudo-Family Gatherings

 

You know you’ve never fit in

It’s something you’ve always known

Something you can’t escape

Smile as you talk talk talk

And they stare

Continuously

As if you have grown a second head

Flesh covered Gargoyle roosting among the “normies”

They shudder when you speak, you know…

Your ignorance crawling over them like bugs in their beds

Merely tolerating the sounds that vomit out of your mouth

Because one of theirs just so happened to have taken you to be his wedded bliss

Tolerant lot

They truly do not see anything intelligent rolling about in that bobbing mass of yours

Not so much as those wonderful scholarly opinions earned upon the high horses of their histories

And yet you dredge through their presence

As if you belong there

When you know you don’t

Never have

With anyone

Holiday Twist

twisted & torn
scarred since the day you were born
you never knew which way was up
cuz you've only ever been down
filled the gaps up with a lie
smiling while wishing you would die
suicide
that's been your only friend
been fighting it, playing pretend
you know you'll lose in the end
because
you're twisted & torn
nothing good left inside
all the best of you has died
gets harder every day
cry while others pray
bleeding out into the night
should have died as a kid from the fright
go away
no strength left in you
you let life beat you black & blue
thought you had the right
to stand up & fight
there was nothing new
inside the darkness grew